well...my scale is broken so i dont know how much i weigh. but i am starting a fast. it started 2 hours ago so yea. we will see how it goes...im hoping for longer than a day : )

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I weighed myself on my old scale that isnt digital, but i think its still pretty close to accurate...maybe a few pounds off. but i weigh 126 : ) not too bad but still not good. havent eaten yet. i didnt fall asleep until after 6 this morning and i was up by 9. pretty irritated about it but im not all that tired...i just want to sleep lol. im hoping to just drink water today which shouldnt be too hard cuz there isnt any diet soda here right now : ) i think these pills for my head are messing me up. i cant function basically unless i take them. like yesterday i woke up and i didnt take them right away and i went and layed on the floor in my room for almost 4 hours. i wasnt sleeping or doing anything. just laying there. so i dont know. i guess i have to keep taking them then.

okay so i have a question... HOW DO I GET THINSPO IN MY POSTS AGAIN?!?!??! i used to be able to no problem and now....NOTHING. they just wont show up and its really starting to piss me off...

anyways. i went to the gym today for about an hour. walked on the treadmill at 4.5 mph for 30 minutes : ) cant run yet...hip still hurts pretty bad. and then i lifted weights for a bit. it was pretty interesting i guess. lol. idk. i need to be smaller soon tho. just havent been doing the greatest lately. i mean i know im not fat... you can see my ribs in my back, my hipbones, collarbones and my thighs dont touch. but i dont understand how i can weigh as much as i do. im 5'7" and weigh 128 pounds. i wear a size 2... shouldnt i weigh less for being that size? gah. pisses me off. my little sister and i wear the same size pants but she only weighs 100 pounds. wtf. blah. maybe i should stop eating again. worked last time...i just have no control to be honest. does anyone tho?